April 27, 2015

April 27, 2015

Hi mom!

It has been awhile since I wrote you, but basically last week I wrote you . . . or at least I hope that you didnt send it out to everyone.  I am learning alot right now, and I am really greatful for all of my trials.  

I think sometimes you just get to a point in the mission where your weaknesses are so obvious and so many that you start to feel a lot of pressure, and then you fight and fight and fight and then one day, the mission is the only most joyous thing you can think about doing.  It happened to katie, and I think it happened in about the same time that I have in the mish right now.  So I am fighting, and I know that I can get there.

I still havent got your package, but I am sure it is in the mail somewhere.  My birthday was good.  Nobody knew about it besides my comp, but she made me a cake, and that is good enough.  She goes home in one week, and I didnt believe that killing in the mish is hard. . .  untill I had to do it.  Haha, its not that she is trukie at all, she isnt.  But just knowing that she is done and that you are very very not done just adds to the pressure.  But without pressure, nothing good happens.  I think I might train this next change but I dont know because I dont know if my president really likes me.  We had interviews and I asked him why I had hna lindsay and he thought I was complaining and so he kind of chewed me out lovingly.  And I felt SOOOO bad.  Becuase I wasnt complaining.  I love hna Lindsay, and she changed my mish.  But it kind of hurts to be chewed out by your mission president. 

Sorry to vent to you.  rEally, I am so good. I guess you are my Trent.  But if it makes you worried, I can email someone else.

Love with all my heart,

Also send me a pic of spencer with crutches!  and some recipies that have simple ingredients.  I will print them out and make them to eat!

Love ya,

Hermana Jarman