November 13, 2014

Nov 13, 2014

Love my comps. Love the mtc.  Still learning the language, but I even feel ok about that right now.  Really the mtc has been really great for me.  Maybe I will have a mission like dads . . . . no periods of intense pain.  Well see I guess. I leave on tuesday morning.  I think I email you sometime monday afternoon one last time to say I am leaving the mtc.  I also sent you a letter in the pouch mail. It should get to you soon.  So be exited.  But I am so glad that I get to talk to you today.  Last p day was a little bit rough (as you  may see from my letter) because I felt like katie was struglling with Trent and not scared for the future, which means that trent was struggling, and life just seems to be poerfect for you, which life is never perfect for you, and for some odd reason, maybe I was in my pit or something, I felt like I had lost my emotional intamacy with you guys.  Like you guys felt like you couldnt use me as a confidant or something. 

Moral of the story, more detail is soooo much better for me than less.  Some missionaries dont want to know what they are missing. but I want so bad to hear the good the bad the hilarious about your lives because then I feel like I am still part of the family.  So talking to you feels so good!!  

This is something that I dont know if I would have all 40 people on the email list, but it was so special and so cool.  

Sister Nelson was talking about how we have a list of things to do in this life, and how even if we are really talented at something, if it is not on the list, we just dont have time.  And I was thinking about how for so long I couldnt understood if I loved medicine, if I was really smart, if I could work hard, then WHY couldnt I be a doctor.  If I was talented at something, how could it not be right.  I am sure you remember many crying session about this.  And sister nelson was talking and i just wanted to cry.  I want to cry now thinking about it.  I finally understood.  And especially because I realized that the wives of apostles, the wives of mission presidents, the wives of stake presidents and bishops, of every righteous man out there, have SSSSSOOO much influence. They are the great teachers and preachers of the gospel every bit as much as their husbands.   And that IS something that is on my list,  Be a righteous wife of someone.  THAT is what I have time for.  I read my patricarchal blessing on the way home and EVERYTHING was so clear.   Everything.  It was a very specail expereience for me.  I think I needed to come to the Argentina mtc so I could here talk.  It was even more interesting that I went to hear an apostle of the lord and HIS WIFE was the person that gave me the needed revelation.  It made the point even stronger that wifes and mothers are powerful.

Anyway, I have to go!!! Love you!!

What a neat experience.  We will keep this safe.  I think we learn over time that God just wants our happiness, and He knows the pathway to follow for each of us to optimize our happiness.  I am so glad you go to hear her talk!

Love you!  It was SO GREAT to chat.

Love,

Mom