Nov 23, 2015

Nov 23, 2015

Hey fam!

Thanks for all your support!  You guys are the best.  I realize that whatever problem I have had, you have always helped me out and given me advice so perfect.

Mom, I read your letter (to paul) to my comp last night.  And reading it aloud, in english, (because my comp speaks english perfectly) I just felt the love of the letter touching me, I felt loved by you.  And I think it helped her too. 

She is really discouarged right now.  I think it is in part that the area is getting a little dificult and is having a little bit of a dip right now, and so we arent seeing as many fruits as we would want to see, or having as many lessons as we would want.  Also in part that she is a little bit missing her country and culture and family, and also a little bit in part that she is a little bit fat and has some knee problems.  She told me two times this week that it might be better if she just went home . . . and I told her that that is not an option, and that she just has to sleep and then she will feel better. (But she is starting to love sleeping which makes me nervous because that is a sign of depression . .  or discouragement or something .. . or no.  I dont know.)

  

And our district leader is now getting a little bit more . . .  involved . .  to help us in our area,, which is something good but also makes me nervous because he and the my other comp used to fight a lot and hna lazo does not have very good experiences hearing advice from elders. 

Sigh . .  smile . . . but I really am doing really well.  The whole gossip thing . .  well, I have gotten over it.  And my comp too.  She wrote president and he sent her a really cool letter about it . .  and she now feels ok with it.  And I just had to read a few conference talks and remember something that a 70 told us when I went to zone conf with Katie in her mish .¨The power does not come from the rightous choices of the leaders, but from the sustainging hearts of the members of the church.  And I read a talk about sustaing, and what it means to sustain leaders, and I am ready to really sustain them and see the blessings of my obedience.

Also this week made me reaize that I love the atonement.  Because there were a couple hard moments this week, becuase she is gong through the same things that I went through the first months of my mission. Feelings of discouragement, then you start to feel really negative and frustrated by the lack of church organization, and start to compare paraguay and the church here to chile or the states, and you feel like the lack or resutls are your comps falts and then you blame the members and then you turn it on yourself finally and then you just feel awful.

And when all these things happened I didnt feel any resentment. She told me all the things I do wrong when I teach the other day, and i just felt so much love for her.  Everytime I thought . . . awww . . this is hard. I prayed, let go of my stress or bad feeling, and I just felt love.  Love for me, love for her.  Love for the members.

The Lord sustains me so much.  Do you guys feel like the Lord helps you everyday?  Because you should try it out. :)

Anyway, aw man, I didnt write a group email. Just tell everyone that I am doing great!  Because I am!  I love the misison so much!  Its hard, but it doesnt feel hard.  It just is fun,

Love,

Hna Jarman

P.S. Happy Thanksgiving!!!

P.S.S. Trent!! When have I not responded you!!!  Also, if you and Katie please please could write a short letter to my comp .. . I know that you both had times of disanimo en la mision y que puede ayudarle mucho y tambien puede hacerlo en español que creo que va a tocarla mas.  Entonces, un parafo tal vez.  Katie---yo sè que usted tenìa un tiempo dificil en sus ultimos 3 cambios, tal vez puede escribirla sobre eso!  Ya, i know your in finals.  Sorry.  The lord will bless you.  Its that I told her that you went throgh something similar katie, and I asked her if she wanted me to ask you how you got through it and she said yes. sent in in a word doc.  I willl print it out maybe.