Nov 9, 2015
Hey mom!
Sounds like you guys had a blast in NY and NJ. Its so great!!! And I really am super exited for the day that I will get to see my converts and other of my favorite members again. But with you.
So practice your spanish and I will practice my traslating skills.
Hey, can you send me some recipes!!
Of sarah salad, pumpkin pie (one that doesnt included tons of c anned stuff because there isnt a ton of canned things or canned sauces here), and sweet potatoe pie. And shepards pie. Oh and the lipton soup mix pie because they have the lipton soup mix here. I want to start cooking a little more but I dont have recipies!!
Also, I want some advice from my 4 favorite misisonaries retornados (you, dad, trent, katie). Because of two things.
First of all, how can you help someone that is tired. Like pretty happy, obedient, does the things because they know that they should. To I dont know, love the misson again. Because my comp has 3 changes left (or 2 after this one) and she is . . . tired. And I dont blame her, because she has knee problems and walking hurts, and she really is tired because sometimes she falls asleep in lessons . . . and she just . . misses her boyfriend who she wants to get married to, and her family, and her country, and her food and the days when she will not have to walk in the heat anymore. And I dont know. I think this is what being trunky is but its not like she doesnt want to work . . its just that . . . she is tired. She trained a comp that was super super mean to her, and then this newbie comp went home after 5 weeks (and the WHOLE mission talks bad about her . . . when someone told me that she was my comp my zone leader started to tell me good luck, she is super mala, and it will be hard to get along with her. I said ¨Elder, shut up! I dont care. In english. I was SOO mad because that was exactly what the WHOLE mission said to me when I got hermana pardes and I am SICK of hearing gossip and that I am going to fail with my comps and that we have no hope of getting along¨), and so she feels bad about herself a little bit about this,After her disaster training she had another cool comp for two changes and then came here. And I dont know. I think that it makes me truckie too because I am not super far away from the day that I go home either . . .and it doesnt frustrate me but it just makes me tired like her. And I do NOT want to be truckie untill I am in your arms. I want to work hard. But I dont know maybe katie had a moments like this too when she was tired, when she just wanted to be with trent, but kept on working. And i want to help my comp . . so any advice . . .
The other thing is gossip. If there is anything that makes me just want to . . .idk change misisones it is this. I stuggled a lot wanting to be a leader in my mision but now I do not want to be a leader because the leaders go to their reunion to gossip together (in front of the presidente who does NOTHING to stop it) and then. I kid you not. I am more obedient than most of my leaders in my district and zone. And what do they do . . . get mad at us for being 5 mintues late when they go to the house of the RS president to ¨drink water for an hour . . ¨ because they also came to pick up her son to leave and do visits with them. They are in her hosue more than us and she lives in OUR area. And what do they do, tell me my comps are bad misisonaries and didnt treat her well, (untill they got to know her and realized that it was all LIES what they had heard and that she is super super kind hearted). They had heard all about hna lazo from their little amigo lider de zonas in their littlle reunion. One day with hna PAredes the hermana lider came to do interchanges and told her ¨¨im not saying this because I think this, but there are a lot of hermanas in the mission that have said that you dont let your comps talk in lessons. So you need to change that¨ A way more offensive to say that, I dont imgaine exists. So in the end of the interchange I recieved a furious and offeded hna Paredes that had to take her anger out on someone . . ,. and she was going to do it to me, but then I just loved her and calmly talked her out of it. Like seriously mom, sometimes it makes me so MAD that they are so bad with the people they lead. The misison has changed a lot with the new misison president and the misison now is a lot more . . titles are accomplishments (your parents and you recieve a signed letter from president congradulating you) and everyone in the mish is more diobedient and althought even my comp has TOLD president that its hard for her that everyopne talks bad about her, he just says ¨are you sure they said that . . . maybe you just interpreted wrong.¨ But they say these bad things in front of him in the reunion of leadership.
And mom, this is hard for me. To be lead by people who I have to pray to love, pray to respect, pray to forgive.
And maybe this is just my pride, but this is what is hard for me in the mission right now.
But I am sure that these things are normal and I think in my last interview with president when I go home I am going to tell him very kindly that he has GOT to do something to stop the gossip in the misison or things are going to get a lot worse. and that certificates of acheivement for position sends the VERY VERY CLEAR message that titles in the misison are accomplishments. You only get a happy ¨your president said that you got upgrdaded¨ letters from your parents if you have a TITLE.. No title means you didnt do well. You failed. Or didnt win. And that he is going to do a lot of damge to otherwise very good but maybe more quiet elders that dont get upgraded if he continues like that
But that is such a bad prideful thing to do. To talks like that to your president. So I am not going to do it. But lots of times I want to.
Anyway, I love the mish. But I want advice. Por eso I tell you some of the bad things about the mish. The work is going well, I love my comp, I love my area. I am doing super well, but I just dont know what to do about these two things!!
Love,
Hna Jarman
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